Trust in the Process
I haven’t blogged in weeks, because each time I try, words fail me. I barely understand the changes that this writing group has caused in my life, and what I do understand feels impossible to explain to outsiders. Talking about this project is just as hard as participating in it.
When thinking of all the things I could possibly blog about, I realized that they all have two common themes: fear and trust.
I’m afraid that I can’t do this. I’m afraid that I won’t be able to write my story well. I’m afraid that the reader won’t understand. I’m afraid of talking about my life.
All of these fears boil down to issues of trust. I don’t trust the reader to understand, and more importantly, I don’t trust myself to write.
But my group tells me I can, and that’s enough to keep me going.
After all, this isn’t about me.